helplessly I search, looking for a sense of light, an exit from this dungeon  

  in the darkness, my cornea lost to find any point to focus

  I was blind, 

  so was my heart ... ...

 

  Are YOU giving up on me?

 

      I cried, but there's no answer

      where were the hands that use to hold and guide me,

      where were the strong arms that use to carry me through all my ups and downs

      where was the patience ears that always there for my ....

      where are YOU?

             

      battling with all the unknown, alone.. ...

      I am alone... ... 

      was it my pride that pull me down, 

      was it my paranoia, so my tiny little heart that lost its way

      was it my rebellion, materialistic, luxurious indulgence ... ....

      left me in where I am...

               My heart is bleeding....

 

  Lord,why did You despise me?

 

        

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